Now that I am nearing the end of my first trimester (holy crap!) I wanted to share a few thoughts I have on this whole pregnancy business. There are a lot of things I just didn’t know going into this. What’s funny is that a lot of these things I HAD PEOPLE TELL ME WOULD HAPPEN, but in the case of a lot of things in life, I simply had to experience them for myself to fully understand. So, here goes.
1.) I had no idea how exhausted I would be:
Whenever a pregnant friend would tell me about the fatigue, I would feel bad for them, but at the same time, never really thought it was a big deal. I have had PLENTY of times in my life where I have been super tired. I run marathons for crying out loud! I just thought I had seen what “tired” looked like. Falling asleep at the table, crying because you don’t want to get off the couch to go to the bathroom, and you can forget working out. Now that is exhaustion. The thought of running those first few weeks made me ball up into the fetal position and bury my head like an ostrich. It’s real folks, and it sucks. I am still sleeping ten hours a night, but my need for a daily nap has gone, I only take them on days that I workout hard or do things like, go to the grocery store. Also, the exhaustion made the crazy hormones way worse.
2.) I had no idea how much I would worry:
I knew that people had miscarriages, but I never really realized just how many, or how scary the thought was until I was pregnant. I will admit it has been very difficult for me to accept this pregnancy because I keep thinking at any moment it can be gone, because it’s still early….Every little cramp, ache, or odd feeling sends my heart into palpitations, and I constantly worry if baby M is alright in there. I am a control freak, and don’t like that I can’t “see” what’s going on and if everything is on track.
3.) I didn’t realize there are so many symptoms:
You hear of the common things like nausea, fatigue, and boob soreness/growth… but I didn’t know I would be constipated, have SO MUCH acne, be astonishingly forgetful, or be really moody, or have a ton of excess saliva. Gross, I know. This is of course just the tip of the iceberg, but really, I had no idea.
4.) I didn’t quite understand food aversions:
I knew that most pregnant women get nauseated, and that certain smells and foods can make them sick, but what I wasn’t prepared for is having nearly the thought of EVERY food make me sick. Or, that I would simply have no appetite for 99% of the foods on this earth. I’m 13 weeks tomorrow and still can only stomach a handful of things. I cannot wait until the day I CRAVE food again! This girl loves to eat, so it’s no fun.
5.) I didn’t think I would gain weight in other places so early:
I was of course expecting a little bump to start forming, but what I wasn’t expecting so early is for my thighs to grow and my hips to spread. This scares for for when I am much further along! I am hardly eating from the nausea and I am working out as much as I can, but it just won’t stop. I guess I can’t fight genetics on this one.
Hopefully this didn’t scare any future moms to be, but it’s been my truth, and I wanted to share, mainly so I can look back and remember one day and possibly compare my (hopefully) next pregnancy to this one. I realize that even though a lot of these (who am I kidding, all of these) things are unpleasant things, I also know how blessed I am, and that these things are just temporary!
QOTD: What is something you didn’t know going into pregnancy? If you have never been pregnant, what scares you the most about it?